Falling and Getting back up

We fall a lot. I've done it, more times than I can count. I am trying to build the connection(Habit, Alter) between asking Him before the Fall to take it from me before I do. And then allow(ask) Him to re-orient our nature towards Him. The reminder to ask Him is sometimes choked out by our own desires of the flesh. So the soul convinces itself it is justified because of "a feeling", because of its nature, its way, what it thinks it likes, because of all the prior things it did it justified itself by the good feelings it had. Because the bad habits(alters to evil spirits) are at war with the peaceful one. They entice the flesh with lies that speak of the self gratification/justification as the thing God wants. He doesn't. But the lie is already Habit, and Habit can be very powerful in overcoming flesh when we don't look up prior to habit, and say Father, your will, not mine. So we fall at times without this building block of life. That's part of the process, get back up, tell Him you're sorry and ask Him for His help in removing the Habit/thing that you are bound to. He understands. As you go through this process you begin to understand His Love is something bigger than your desire. His way leads to consistent rejuvenation of your spirit. The gentleness of Him a firmly held grasp upon you, if you don't fight it. And the more love you Give Him, the more He uplifts you. Thank you Jesus.